Driving The Therapy

Driving 

Driving is that drug which always give highs to me. Especially when I touch 110 plus it used to be purely " Just Me " and I always love manual than automatic.. Both the hands, Legs aligned with mind which will be Focused only on Road, that awareness, one pointed focus, maybe sort of dhyana it used be..  

Every human being will have drowning phase of life especially when they hit 40s.  And I am not alone and Am very well with this universe and this Being. So i also drowned even before i touched 40s. 

Everything what i learned, what i was thinking, feeling, beleif and many things started changing slowly. I am a person who is very hard on thyself and discipline is very much important and consistent too. When i was drowning i knew that i was and i knew that will take couple of months even years to completely drown and touch the core. It was not easy yet cosmic cushioned me with beautiful souls so i drown safely and feel every inch of that, and i knew it was paining to the max, some days are like the most worst days of ma life where I felt like why this life, why like this ? But Cosmic never let me alone, some other way it found to keep me alive. 

And driving is one such drug for me. Whenever i was down, driving used to be my therapy. Especially when ever i touch 100 plus i felt like pain killers. It continued for couple of months even years. I knew it will take it own time, i was ok even if i take some little extra time. But i wanted to ensure i come back.  Many souls supported so gently. Heartful Thanks to all of them. When i started healing thats when actual picture comes, because healing with so much love is such a toughest task. And i wanted to heal only with Love, not with Hatred, antipathy. Here and then they showed their face, i felt so bad and that showered its side-effects in the body. Yup hatred and antipathy give so much Chaos in the body.   Consciously I chose Love and Care towards the Fellow Humans. When ever i was out of consciousness it took me down a little again. 

I used to feel This too shall Pass... This is what kept on helping me to move ahead. 

When healing takes place its way to the most, the feeling of living is something different. 

Again i feel This too shall Pass. 

But how to just witness the moment and do nothing, which used to be very easy earlier in twenties and thirties but so difficult in fourtis... 

Now driving has become something else. Even when i feel like driving fast and hit 100 plus, i enjoy the slow driving the most. I feel so calm, how i used to be earlier. Only few souls can do this magic who are so pure. 

This too shall pass...